I dunno, it's May

So I'm eating "normally" again, and staying about the same. When my husband goes up north to work, I'll be hitting the diet again. Not to lose weight, but I liked how I felt on it. I was never hungry, and I felt great. Feel ok, just getting over some kind of flu. I'd like to see if I can firm up a bit, now that I'm riding a lot. Love being able to fit into my clothes.

week 12, day 2

Well kids, I'm pretty happy with the body these days. Not perfect, but who is? Pants fit well, I feel healthy, and looking forward to a great summer of riding horses and being outside. I'm sorta still eating withing the guidelines of this diet, but I will have a yogurt, or granola bar for a snack. Not sure if I will ever eat jello again. Sugar has left my daily life, but on Saturday (eating day) it rears it's sweet head and we all indulge. I bakes nuclear cup cakes Saturday. lol, my oven is so old it nuked the bottoms. Hey, ya only eat the tops of the cup cakes, anyway. My daughter brought home pizza and ice creme. It was a great eating day. I'm settling around 115, which is where my body seems to be happy. 5 pounds more than I wanted, but better than that extra 25 pounds. Maybe, once I'm riding every day, that five pounds will melt away. Exercise makes a big difference in weight loss.
I think this was the easiest, and most gentle way of losing weight I've ever done. I was never hungry, and the pounds dropping daily at first was great motivation. I think this will be my last regular post. I'll keep you updated on any ups or downs, but otherwise, I'll talk with you later!

week 11, day 3

There it is...you know, that little dip that hints at a hip bone? No, no actual bone, just that little indent. My tummy goes out then INNNNN, then out. The dip. You know the one. It's so much better than the large planet that once graced my middle region. I'm pretty happy with things the way they are. I think I hit around 113 and 1/2 this morning. Now I'm scared that if I eat healthy, but normal, I'll gain weight. You know, if I eat anything but refries, eggs, lean meat and sauted spinach, I'm doomed. Except for Saturday, of course. sigh. I'm so sick of refries, eggs, lean meat, you know the usual. Don't forget jello. Yeah jello. arg. My daughter has a drawer full of my favorite candy. I ate jello. Jello.
What do I do with the me I am, now that there is less of me? How do I keep this? I don't want to go back. Ever. I lost me, under 25 pounds of more of me. It made me feel old. Tired. Depressed. Help?

week 11, day 2

Just got back from a gaited horse/versatility clinic last night. It was some cold riding, even though we were in an indoor arena. I wore my ski pants over my riding pants, and actually rode a hole in the butt of my ski pants. When I got home, I couldn't help it, I checked my wieght. 114!!!!!!!!! Only 4 pounds to go, folks! Our clnic started at 10 and ended at 5, so that's a lot of riding and moving on the ground. I did have to stop about an hour early both days because of back pain, but all that moving got me off that platau of 117.
Unfortunately, I have lost a lot of weight in my butt! Wish I could take what's up front, and put it in my butt! I think I'm going to have to get a gel pad for my "used to be comfortable" saddle.
So folks, this diet works. It works. With exercise, it works better. I did notice that I was able to move a lot easier when I started losing wieght. If you can just bare with it, moving will be easier, once you get going. Even if you can't exercise, walking up a hill won't take your breath away. That tummy won't be sitting on your legs when you sit down. Cellulite dies, what I hope is a terrible death. And that day when you are so close to your goal weight you can't stand it, will come.
I watched "I Used To Be Fat" on t.v. for motivation. Also, my pants not cutting off circulation around my middle helped a lot. No muffin top! My eating habits have changed a lot! Sugar, as I said before, is now a treat, not a way of life. I eat to live, not live to eat. Food is no longer comfort. It is what it is, necessary to maintain health. So I put a lot of thought into what I put into my body. Is it good for me? Is it fuel or just a way to fill a void that food can't fill? Think about WHY you eat what you eat. If you don't look at that, you'll go right back to your old way of doing things, because the real issues are still there.
I'll keep ya posted!

week 10, day 3

I'm at 117, and hoping that trend continues. Eating day didn't send me over the 119 mark, so maybe this week will continue in a good direction. Rode one of my horses today, and it felt pretty good. Sinus infection had my head exploding all day. Tomatoe soup tonight for dinner. The Preggesso stuff, so it was filling and good. Lunch was a very small chicken breast, and refries. This morning I cheated a bit and had cereal. I know we are not supposed to eat grains, but cereal is something that doesn't upset my tummy. Eggs just don't do it for me.
It's been such a long time since I began, it's hard to remember how I did eat. I guess, not well, often, and all the wrong stuff. Part of this process is creating a new way of looking at food, I think. I'm certainly eating a lot healthier, and sugar has taken a back seat. It WAS driving the bus, but not so much any more.

week 10, day 1

Had a fun eating day. Lunch with my daughter, her boyfriend ala arabic. Her boyfriend is from Dubai, very sweet and I loved the different culture. Movies with my kid, popcorn, candy and soda. Road mini donuts driving from store to movie. It was fun.
I am doing a detox and cleanse this week. I bought a seven day cleanse, no fasting, with pro biotics follow up. Maybe I will be like John Wayne and have 45 pounds of yuk in my colon! Hey, I'm 50 pounds, I was just full of shit! Sorry. One can only hope. I'll let you know how it goes.

week 9, day 2

117 this morning! It's been warm, so much more running around outside. Today is in the teens, may warm up to low 30's and very windy. I'll probably be spending some time on the elliptical and may do a pasture walk with the horses. My cold is almost done, thanks to some antibiotics.
Went to dinner with a friend last night, and had that old "egads, I want to eat!" feeling. This is Kansas, so keep that in mind. The restaurant had NO vege's, no nothing! Ordered a steak, only ok, and an iceburg lettuce salad. I asked the waiter if he had anything besides potatoe for a side and he said he'd check. lol, came back and told me he could give me day old corn from yesterday, but would have to charge me 1.00 substitution charge. lol! We cracked up! A dollar for day old corn. Last time we go there.
Had a little jello when I got home, and that was it. I guess eating has stopped being such an event in my life. I think I ate because I was bored, for comfort, for that sugar buzz. With all that gone, I eat so that I don't die. I refuel, and I am very aware of what I'm putting into my body.
Someone asked me if when I got to my goal weight, 110, would I go off this diet. My thoughts are, no. Not so attached to losing weight and getting to 110. Just going to see where my body finds it's balance, and if that's 117, or 105, that's where I'll be. This isn't about losing wieght anymore. It's about being healthy and feeling good.